reflecting

Usually Monday prenatals (which is our intake day) is just too busy for any sort of reflecting at all... But today as I did a prenatal on a woman I couldn't help but be amazed... amazed at God's hand in this baby's life. It's not unusual for us to have women pass through the clinic who have attempted to abort their babies (obviously unsuccessfully), then they have to wait and wonder if the attempts have harmed their infant in some way or if they will be presented with a healthy little one. Anyway... today this woman sat at my prenatal bed and we chatted about her pregnancy, her life, nutrition, etc... I saw on her chart about her boyfriend just taking off on her midway through the preganancy, which is why she chose to try to end the life inside... but God has a purpose and a plan for this little one... As I showed her where the butt was, the head, the back, the little feet... she was literally glowing with love for this little one. Yes, all her worries and struggles are still there in front of her, but they were dimmed by the love to her baby. We prayed and she thanked me... and then she left... Maybe 10 or 15 minutes were spent with her total... but she came scared of her pregnancy and the future... and left feeling more confident and more secure in her journey to motherhood. That.... is why I'm a midwife... it's not me... it's God's love.